MeeN RocKs!!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

WOOTS!! today went to do hw as i'm drowning in them.. hahas!! okays.. just as i was on my way to the library, some coconut text me and so.. we ended up texting each other like crazy and that made me half alive since i was kinda dead being at the library doing hw.. although i did not much, but that stupid not much hw i did cost me a few hours!!! can die la... hahas!! but overall it was a fun studying day ^^

well... of course i still seriously do regard u as one of my goodie friend even things might be a little different now.. and i'm also glad that you've made it sort of clear to me.. and please do not feel that you are FAT around me because no matter what i've always regarded you as my friend. besides that, i am honest and i seriously don't mind telling that i'm not rich. in tearms of family ship you seems to be richer than me because your family ties ain't that bad.. for me, i have only my dad to support me as my mum don't even care a thing about me at all. and if you ever say that i'm making use of you and backstabbing you. let me ask you a question... what can i backstab you about? and what can i make use of you about? whatever you can do, i can practically like do it too?

and if you wanna drag friends in saying that i'm backstabbing you for whatever reasons that i'm not known of, let me just tell you something... i very much believe that the people that said i've backstab you or something.. are not friends that are really close to me and stuff. and have you ever ask my other close friends what i've always say to them about you? if you don't believe, you can just practically ask someone whom you and i knew as well and she's my bestie as well.. Amanda. just because she is my bestie.. and we both regarded each other as one. i told her like everything? and i always talked about you to her saying that you're really nice and you treated me very well and we became best friends and stuff when she was not around for choir and stuff..

she knows every single thing about what's like happening? and i know that you've been stress by your friends on the other side as well.. because it's pretty obvious that's what they will be doing since they are ppl that dislike me. and i also seriously don't mind if you actually believe what they are saying because they are your friends too. you've got the rights to choose who you actually wanna believe and stuff like that. and i also don't might that you can't go out often.. so there's no need for apologising.

and last of all, friends or not, it's not for me to decide.. because you've already said that you can't be my friend because your other friends are stressing you so badly. and if badly wanted our friendship to have an end.. just say it.. and... i'm slightly different from you. because my friends will never stop me from making friends or breaking the friendship that i have with others because they all know that i really do cherish friends a lot. it may not appear as how it is.. but it's the fact. and if it's that difficult for u to just be my friend since there's so much stress, then it's alrite.. you just needa tell me.. becuase maybe it's my fault that cause you to have this stress.

and it's the same as well... if i ever did anything wrong of what you think that's wrong, i'm sorry. and i do mean it. because i've never once hate you even after you've changed. and you're right. it's pretty obvious i don't like that change.. and the thing i said to my friends was that you've become someone that have been drifting further away from me and changed into someone that is so cold. am i wrong for what i say? i don't think so. if you can tell me that you're feeling hurt, then what am i feeling? damn happy?! that's like so not gonna happen to me? it hurts just as bad over at my side as well.

aiya... i don't know what to say la.. just believe who you wanna believe. but friends.. will last a life time. =]

no one will ever know... the pain in my heart...

Monday, December 29, 2008

Hi,Hie,Hello,Ello!!! hahas!! well.. as usualy, today have choir at 3pm and went to school at 9.30am to "study" although i doubt anyone would believe... because... it didn't really happen anyway!! LOL!!! okays.. choir was quite fun.. with Maple, Beverley and Amanda[mummy] to keep everything crazy like some mad people.. hahas!! ok.. short and simple.. end of what's going on for today. ^^

now to moving on to a more serious tone, i would like to say... can you stop acting as though you're like saying that i'm the one that's acting and blah blah blah... if you don't like me or anything, just say it right in front of my face rather than being some pain in the ass and having to have such a need to backstab or talk bad about me behind my back. like what has everything become yeah? thinking that i was still one of your goodie goodie friend that i can actually entrust on... WOW... you are really a great one man...

what's the point of bullshitting so much about saying this and that about some peeps trying to act in front of you and stuff and much worst,being a hypocrite? let me tell you the honest fact... everyone made friends with you because they WANT and not because they NEED to. if you're gonna be such a prissy person and only believe words that some other people might tell you that made you change into such a person? if that's the case, i'm seriously sad... because no one is even acting in front of you.

and if someone were to NOT tell them their true feelings, it's not because they are not your true friend/best friend.. it's just because they don't want you to feel bad or to have that thought thinking that you did wrong since besties won't really take things to heart.. and they would rather have a rest for that matter.... and if you don't believe that i treat you as one of my best friend, that's totally fine with me because if i were actually being a best friend in your heart, you wouldn't have doubt me and treated me this way. to tell you the truth, if you wanna say i'm acting in front of you or whatever, it's totally not.

and please to not act as though you're the hottest girl in town or because you are filthy rich or whatever shit crap you can think of just to find yourself an excuse to say that i'm acting in front of you. because you are totally not the hottest girl in town? and you are not even rich at all? and it totally make no sense for me to even be acting in front of you. for you info, i am your friend because I WANTED TO and not because i'm like friend-less or trying to gain any good deals from you. so if you do not wanna cherish our friendship, that's absolutely fine with me. because i've totally no idea what you've turn into.

and if i ever did anything wrong or what so ever that made you think that i've changed into another person or become someone whom you don't even know, i seriously don't mind if you just confront me and telling me about where i've went wrong and telling me what i did that made you think so... because having people to tell me where i did wrong is actually part and parcel of my life. and i WON'T because of whatever you said or confronted me about as something bad because i'm sure that if you were to tell me about what you actually think of me and what i should do to change for the better it's really what a good friend should be doing. because i'm always myself and sometimes i don't realise the mistakes that i did..

so last of all... if you hate me, shoo far far away from me.. and i do not ACT in front of others esp towards my friends. and i would not want anyone to be acting infront of me or trying to pacify/confort me or trying to ask how i am just for the sick of askin.. because i find it really REVOLTING.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

okays... first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY AH MA CHOY PHENG!!!! ;DDD

hehs... although it wasn't a really fun and exciting outing or anything with the clique... but... yeah... a truly genuine Happy Birthday to you. =) today's event is not really going as planned? i will explain more about it later.. first, we're suppose to meet at amanda's[mummy] house first and so the people that came are.. Choy Pheng[ahma], Kelvin Ting[uncle], Ashley[darling], Leon, Yue Han, Jian Xiong[ah gong], Edmund, Amanda[mummy], Rey and of course myself.

then after that go to somewhere near her block to play cake fight. ok.. but i cant play due to some crap reasons so i just sat there with Ashley, Rey and Leon. ok.. and everyone had of course disapper as it's a cake war.. hahas!! then they took cream and stuff to "paint" on each other faces... after the crazy cake fight, edmund didn't even get "painted" at all! so, Amanda came up with a plan that we said end game and Amanda and Choy Pheng actually caught Edmund as i pulled him to take the lift back to Amanda's house when Choy Pheng was waiting right infront of the lift and Amanda was waiting downstairs...

Honestly, i actually didn't really get to know the plan... but it seems to work anyway. hahas! but i went into Amanda's house to just wash up since kelvin actually told edmund everything and i was kinda piss with him since i thought he spoiled all the fun.. i was in the living room when suddenly Edmund rush up to me and said "Shermeen ni si ding le!!" because i was the one that dragged him up the lift.. and his face, hair and hands are like all "painted" with cream. hahas~!! ok so i ran like everywhere trying to get him to lay his hands filled with cream on me...

and at the mean time, Amanda was with Choy Pheng in the kitchen because they are washing up their hands and legs as well... and i ran into the kitchen so that i could use the sink to wash my hands since only my hands are like oily due to the cream... while Amanda and Choy Pheng is at the kitchen's bath room... as soon as i got my hands clean.. Edmund came rushing in and trying to get me... and like block me from getting out of the kitchen.. and like i seriously can't force my way out? he is way too strong... -.-'' becuase he is like having cream everywhere on him, Edmund said " I won't let you pass unless you hug me. ".

but like.. it's a Duh thing that i'm not going to hug him? and what's worst is... Choy Pheng is there.. and no doubt she over heard what edmund say to me.. but i'm also not sure if she did hear or not... then after that, i managed to get away from edmund.. and i ran to Choy Pheng saying that " Choy Pheng!! Edmund bully me!! " and then she gave me a very scary and fierce tone saying " oh. then what do you want me to do? " so... yeah.. i realise that she was actually angry or jealous about it... but i can't do anything to change what Edmund have said...

so.... after everything... her face expression change... and my face expression change as well... and so i'm like going mad because i've no idea what am i suppose to do and i can't even talk to her because she sounded so fierce... aiya... then don't wanna say le la. it sucks.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

woots!!! ok.. now it's like christmas? and guess what... i celebrated X-mas at Ashley's house!! with her family, relatives and of course they clique.. hahas!! IT'S TOTALLY COOL!!!! there are loads of chat... jokes... laughter... pool... Tv... wines... stuff to eat!!! YUM!!! hehs.. the best part was the exchanging of PRESENTS!!! TOTALLY COOL ALRITE!!! and it's damn funny!! cant describe how fun it was... but it's like... FUN!!! LOL!!!

and at her house, there is the really really nice christmas tree which is white in colour!!! so nice!~ hehs.. then ok.. actually the celebrated on X-mas eve.. but it i reach home at about 2am.. so it's CHRISTMAS!! LOL!!! i didn't mean to hang out so late... but.. hahas!!! who cares!! not as if i'm out somewhere loitering or something... xD oh ya oh ya!! THANKS ASHLEY DARLING FOR THAT WONDERFUL SILVER ANKLET!!!! ;DDD i totally love it!! thanks!! ^^

hehs!! okays overall, its a fun night!!! xD loves!!!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

You Are 68% Brutally Honest

Most of the time, you tell it like it is. Even if it's hard for people to hear.

Sometimes you hold back though, because you never want your honesty to be hurtful.

How Brutally Honest Are You?

Friday, December 19, 2008

woots!! i'm like back from camp!! so freakin happy la!! ok.. it's like a prefect camp? and then for the sec 3, there are only 5 girls that actually attend the camp which the 5 are yueqin, regina, vali, qiao ting and myself!! though we felt kinda pathetic at the start.. but guess what? we had fun in our own special way!!! hahas!! ok... things like.. we laugh at each other and chat, care for each other during the whole camp.. like one happy family!! ^^ it seems as though we are like looking quite left out.. but to be honest, we're actually in our own world the whole damn time! hahas!

ok.. so the first day of camp, suppose to meet up with regina and yueqin to go school together... but as usual... i'm usually the last to arrive... -.-'' SORRY! hahas i really didn't mean to be late. because i forgot stuff and i've got to run up and down.. hehs.. ok... i won't be such a person that report what we did together everyday and stuff like that.. but i'll just brieftly say about the main things and the happy moments that i actually remember!!! ^^

ok... we made a great plan on how we are suppose to do up our sleeping styles and stuff on the first day.. and decided to put all the tables together which made it look like a really HUGE BED!! and it's really nice!! ok.. then another major thing is.. we taught each other different languages... ok... Vali taught me how to speak tamil~!! it's totally cool alright?! and when the 3 other girls in our crazy group are not here, Vali continued teaching me how to pronounce the words and stuff.. and guess what? she suddenly said.. "Wa Shermeen! not bad ar... you are really good in tamil without me giving you the pronounciation!!"

and of course i got a shock because it's like kinda easy and fun to speak the tamil language... [ and i highly suspect that i'm able to speak and get a hang of it so easily is because of that stupid felix... can't blame.. when he talk... he had this tamil thing in him that even if he say english, it totally sound like tamil.. and i think that's where i get those tamil feel from. hahas!! ] so yeah.. speak and learn like crazy!! oh.. then Vali wanted to learn how to speak chinese too!! but you know, my chinese is CMI... so yeah!! i'll have my darling laogong YueQin to teach her!! and Vali is able to speak chinese too!!! and then all 5 of us started being crazy and talk to each other in different language. hahas!!

ok... then just happen that the Crazy 5 of us have to help out at the hall for the N' lvl results release thing... and it's like Only the 5 of us are in it!! so we're all well prepared to give it our all and go super crazy! hahas!! XD ok.. and met loads of sec 4NA people which is like a duh thing.. and during that time.. we are still learning each others language and YueQin actually taught Vali to say "wo yao ni de ai" then i was like laughing like crazy till i fall to the floor and laugh. hahas! it's totally embarassing alright. not kidding at all... BUT!!! i can't seem to be able to get myself to stop laughing.. hahas!!

ok... then after that, helped out and stuff. after everthing is done, went back to out "home" for the 5 crazy jackass which is the classroom to change back to our T-shirts... after that we can't find other people so we went to the speech and drama room which is actually the choir room to wait for the rest to come back.. talked a lot.. laugh a lot... had fun!! and... we took some pictures and sang a Lovely song Together. But... i think the song shall not be known to the public just yet because i think i will laugh like crazy!! hahas!~~ and i'll have to discuss with the other 4 crazy girls as well...

Here are some of the Pictures~~!! =D

Crazy5 styles... hahas!

Our happy family~! xD

Our normal picture of the 5 ^^

going time!! suppose to be Titanic.. but.. turn out.. hahas!!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Who's the person who tagged u?
-Wei Mei =]

Relationship between you and her?
-Goodie friends!!

5 impressions?
-Friendly
-Kind
-Cheerful
-Smart
-Just plain SWEET

If she becomes your enemy, you will?
-try to resolve what's between us. =]

What will you say to the person you like very much?
-Nothing (the person that i like will know that they're loved by me already) ^^

Characteristies I like about myself?
-Being straight forward

Characteristies I hate about myself?
-Being TOO straight forward.. -.-''
-Always tries to tame my mouth but doubt it ever works
-Having to be in this family
-People thinks that i'm acting when i'm really trying my best to be a better person

For the person you hate, you say?
-Why must turn into such a person that i've to hate you?

What do people feel about you?
-I don't know? Different people different judgement i guess?

Your crush?
-Crush? last time have. now don't. it's a Good Thing ;)

Most ideal person you wanna be?
-Wanna know? ask me ^^

Pass this to 10 ppl.
-Lazy to pass...

Sunday, December 14, 2008

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Commitment
Looked down on
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Thursday, December 11, 2008

hmmm.... have been thinking back and self reflecting lately... it's like everything i've done seems to be wrong in a way or another... like... i though by being a bestie we're suppose to tell one another things that we don't think is right about them and stuff so that they can change for the better... but for what i know, my bestie turn out to be really hurt by what i've said and actually cried... i'm sorry... i seriously didn't mean it that way...

hmmm as for today, supposingly the clique are suppose to watch a movie together. due to some unhappy events, i actually flared up at ashley[stead] and like when she is not actually the one to be blame.. and yeah... i was really sorry for what i did, so i went to apologise to her... even though after all the sorrieS i've said, i still can't seem to get over with the guilt i have... and like this is one of the first time i ever flare up till the extend i went home. so... i don't know what's wrong with me? or maybe everyone else is right and i'm the one that's in the wrong...

oh well... seriously don't know what's wrong with me? and i don't know when will i do the wrong things at the wrong time... it's like... i don't want others to be sad or anything when we're all besties after all... so i guess.... next time... all comments will be kept to myself and i will remain silent and not to say a word and just let people be themselves =] friends are like the most important thing in my life? so yeah.. i don't and never would wanna hurt them... but i just don't get it... like to me it's the right thing to do.. but end up, to others it all seems to be wrong..

i must be some freak that ever have that kind of stupid mind i guess. hahas! but yeah... from now on, i think keeping everything to myself would be the best opinion. ^^ and i hope everything will go fine since i stop saying anything. since what ever i say or do seems to be wrong. but no worries!! xD i will change to keep my this stupid mouth that is being so straight forward... and just smile smile smile and everything will be fine!!! =D

so no worries peeps!! i won't bite~ hahas! and as for friends, no worries man!!! i'll just keep my mouth shut. -.-'' sorry for all the wrong things i say.. i promise next that next time i will not do it again!! because it won't happen again anyway... just hope i do not become a introvert. =]

will i still be the same??

Sunday, December 7, 2008

And... yupps!! there's now a chocolate sales going on!! xD well... it's due to X-mas though.. hahas! ok... it's like this... the chocs will come in a form of a packet. and EACH packet have 10 PIECES of dark chocs with hazel nuts. ^^

The more you buy, the more you earn!!
SAVE MORE money as you BUY MORE!!

1 Packet - $6.50

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so.. it's suppose to be $7. cheaper by $0.50

2 Packets - $12 [$1 CHEAPER if buy 2 packet!]

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so... 2 packets suppose to be $14 but now its only $12! (cheaper then the original price by $2!!)

3 Packets - $17 [$2.50 CHEAPER if buy 3 packet!]

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so... 3 packets suppose to be $21 but now its only $17! (cheaper then the original price by $4!!)

4 Packets - $22 [$4 CHEAPER if buy 4 packet!]

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so... 4 packets suppose to be $28 but now its only $22! (cheaper then the original price by $6!!)

5 Packets - $27 [$5.50 CHEAPER if buy 5 packet!]

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so... 5 packets are suppose to be $35 but now it's only $27!! (cheaper then the original price by $8!!)

6 Packets - $32 [$7 CHEAPER if buy 6 packet!]

By right 1 piece of dark choc is $0.70 and there are 10 in each packet so... 6 packets are suppose to be $42 but now it's only $32!! (cheaper then the original price by $10!!!)

This is a seriously YOU GAIN my LOST deal.... but because it's X-mas!!! XD woots!!! so yeah.. there's a sale going on... if you don't believe that my chocs are actually selling for that Ex, please kindly check my post on the SEPTEMBER 16th.. there are all the original prices!! ;DDD

those who wanna order more then that, or chocs without nuts or white chocs, leave a tag or Text me. =] i only sell to those whom i know... and if u think it's Unsafe to eat, Don't buy. ^^

this is how the packet will look like. ^^

Thursday, December 4, 2008

BOO BOO BOO~! hahas! today we had a BBQ gathering with all our friends that we have to pay like $20 per person.. it's like kinda crappy? because it's so expensive! and guess what, it has been raining about the whole damn day... amanda[mummy], choy pheng[ah ma], yuehan and myself went to east coast park by cab as yuehan said that the BBQ stuff are coming and we got to be there to like pay? it was stilling raining though... and we're like holding umbrella at the BBQ pit.

in the end we're unable to take it and so amanda[mummy] the bravest! went to ask the indians whom were already in the shelther whether we could share the space.. overall had a fun but wet time...

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would like to say something.... i'm sorry that this would sound kinda crude... but hope you'll understand.. and i think that i'll be typing this out because everyone don't wish to tell you about it.. but as a bestie of yours.. i think i ought to be the one telling you? but everyone stopped me saying that it might hurt you.. ok... first things first... i just realise that actually many peeps were really unhappy with your attitude... as in.. i know you're not well ike by other girls for example.. as they think that you're a bitch... but im telling you this because the people that you are close to are actually complaining that your attitude is really bad.

such as today at the BBQ... you just gave a black face all if a sudden and that attitude of yours totally change... i'm not trying to be a very jackass person here... as i know everyone do have emotions as well... but... just because of your black face... everyone has been wondering what happen and stuff like that.. and that you have to show me your attitude as well... maybe it's not really your fault because maybe you're unhappy or something... but you know... i'm a really straight person and you know that i don't like to beat around the bush... so ya.. actually you can just come to me and clarify what happen or something that made you unhappy or sad...

although the complains i receive are like before the BBQ... but yeah? your attitude is there at the BBQ as well.. so i just mentioned it.. well... i don't wanna mention names of who complains to me about you and stuff... as i know they are merely just trying to tell me your attitude sucks. but so? you will always remain like that if no one were to tell you. and duh... i can't let that happen? ok... complains were like saying.. oh... you are really rude and always needed attention from other people if not you'll show attitude to them.. and when you show attitude, you either walk infront or behind..[that's if we're walking], show us your black face and give attitude when we talk to you, your replies will be really blunt... as though it's written all over ur face that you are.. "BU SHUANG" and most said that you always wanted to be the center of attraction if not you'll be unhappy...

oh well... and everyone really dislike talking to you on msn, sms or phone? because they said that you really sounded like a bloody pain in the ass rude person. i don't know? maybe you didn't mean to... but.. i seriously doubt so as your text msg can be really nice when you are asking something or stuff.. and i know that your "unable to communicate cyberly" illness has already been cured... but at this stage i've been receiving complains? and when i checked my phone for messages, you told me... "oh... you've got to check your phone... i don't even need to check mine as i know that nobody will sms me".. well, there you've got it, no one really message you because they don't want themselves to be pissed, irritated, angry or unhappy by the replies you send them back.

honestly, almost everyone complains to me about you being really rude, bad attitude or blah blah blah... but like the point is... there is no point for them to tell me because i'm not you. and i can't do anything even if they tell me. so.. yeah.. but i'm seriously sure that they want you to change for the better in terms of your attitude because as you know, i will certainly ignore those people that says bad things about you when they are not even our close friend.. but.. ya... just to let you know, the people that complain to me about you bad attitude are actually those people that you have been hanging out with most of them time and that they are your close friends. therefore i think since it has come to this point, there must be something that you ought to change...

i won't say out your name as this is my blog and i don't know who may read it.. and i'm showing you that i'm treating you as a bestie if not i would not be wasting my time typing all these. so i think that everyone still treats you as a good friend that's why they are telling me this.. although they put it in a kinda bad way... but ya... and ya.. there are certainly much more then that to talk about your attitude... but.. lazy to type too much.. anyway.. we are all not perfect either.. so.. maybe you treat us as your bestie as well so you'll be jealous that we're not talking to you and instead talking to someone else or something... and that jealousy also occurs because i'm sure you treat us as besties as well that's why you'll be jealous or unhappy.

everyone has their flaws and nobody is perfect.. but since we spotted a huge flaw in you, maybe it's time for you to make some changes... and please don't ask me am i refering to you and stuff like that... you will know who you are.... so if for people that are not sure if it's you, that just think back to see if your attitude has been right lately... well, it's never too late to change and bestie like me will certainly help you! because........ well........ good friends are hard to find.... but i just happen to know one, which is you. =D if there is anything and you know that it's you and you've read my blog, you can go ahead and clarify things with me... or maybe why you're like that and stuff... but.. don't ask me who are the people that complain... well... of couse i can't sabo them.. but i'm sure they're all for your own good =]

i hope you know i'm refering to you... and i'm sure that everyone are telling me everything because they are at their limits... so... i'm seriously not being mean or anything... as i still treat you as a bestie that... you should have a change in you attitude... =')

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

this was actually written quite long ago as a draft... i didn't actually post it on to the blog as i have my difficulties... but now see le.. also can't delete and i don't wanna keep it as a draft... so.. oh well... might as well just post it...

tsk! why is it like so hard make a decision?!?! you know the feeling i'm having now is so crap?! and yet it's so hard to explain to people how i'm actually feeling and that i can only keep everything to 3 person.. i, me and myself. -.-'' it's like... who in the hell will be stuck in this kind of condition!!! i think that i like you? and that i'm falling deeply into it?

and right after i fall into it, i realise u have a girlfriend. and what's worse is the girlfriend of yours is one of my good friend. what am i gonna do? cling on like some bitch? i didn't even realise u have a stead until like... recently?! really heart broken when u said that la.. but not as bad when i know it's like one of my good friend.

although u said that u don't really like her and stuff, that's not the point you know? it's like.. you are already so popular. just like what you tell me before, you can always get a stead anytime as you are not lacking of any.. it's like... even if i'm a retarded, i know it will never ever be me. totally like less then 1% chance it'll be me?

to be honest, i don't exactly know if i'm really like into u as in to that kind of bgr relationship.. but what i know is that.. i'm more or less attracted to you? and that.. love chatting and talking to you and stuff... it's really hard to let go... but it's really pain to keep holding on... when i know the out come will not be any better for me...

~since im gonna post this.. i'll just add on~

and then just recently, you keep on giving me this form of HOPE as thought that it might just happen out of the blue? it's like killing me la.. you said you don't like her and during the event for the sec 4NA gathering... you're the one that ask me to go.. and not the rest. like what is this? and like you said you're gonna break up with her and tell her that you both are not suitable..

then after that you add on by saying... shermeen and i are more suitable. like what crap? like what kind of bullshit are you saying? like why are you giving me this form of like HOPE? when i know that it will never ever happen? and during the event, infront of her, you talked to me. but not her... and i've been out with her like the day before and stuff? she actually knows that i call you Pooh?!

then i was totally tongue tied when i wanna answer? and then she way she was talking to me is like.... with that kind of attitude as though we're having some kind of relationship behind her back... i really don't wanna have anything going on and i really don't know what to do. i like you but she's my best friend. like what am i exactly doing?! she was like... YOUR pooh and blah blah blah... i don't like it you know..

and then the gathering i saw you smoke?! like WHAT THE FUCK?! but i know that you didn't want me to see? and that you got to hide it? but the other time you said that you stop smoking already... and then i saw you... like..... nearly broke down? i don't know? first i was not really happy as you were smoking? but then you hid it from me and don't wanna let me see because you don't wan me to learn?!

and because of that stupid gathering for the BBQ then you were like BBQ-ing satays... and then you gave all of them to me... but i said that you don't know how to cook and it's still not yet cooked... and then you are like so disappointed... like what can i do? your gf was there?! and you didn't bother to offer her and instead offer me?!

i seriously don't know... still kinda shocked over the smoking thingy? but i really like you... ARGH! i just seriously hate myself for getting into this kind of situation. i know it's never good to fall in love with someone because it sucks. -.-'' i actually gave up on you already that's why i didn't post this? but like CAN YOU STOP GIVING ME THAT DAMN BLOODY FAKE HOPE?!?! it's not as if we'll ever be together.

every action you did is like affecting me so much. and why i like you? because you're handsome? it's like NO? you're fat? and i have no idea why the hell i would actually fall in love with you?! and i have no idea what attracted me either. it's total crap. usually is guys like me? but now i'm actually liking a guy?! and for my life, usually the guys that i don't like will like me and the guys they i like will COMFIRM not like me?

so i hate it because i like you. and if i like you means... you die also won't like me... totally crap manzxzx.... your gf is my good friend.... what the hell am i suppose to do?! give you up quietly? i guess that's the one and only way? because even if you suddenly out of the blue or something happen to like me... and if i were to accept you... i will be a what? bitch? i can't man...

AND I DON WANNA BE IN LOVE BECAUSE I KNOW IT HURTS.

Monday, December 1, 2008

roses roses roses!! every girl would wish that their guys are romantic.... but you know... some are just plain dumb.. so can't be help... BUT! now there are tips for ROSES!!! like to buy how many and stuff like that really need some knowledge!!!

Here are the number of ROSES..

1 Love at first sight, you're the one

2 Mutual love between both, deeply in love with one another

3 I love you

6 I wanna be yours

7 I’m infatuated with you

9 An Eternal love, together as long as we live

10 You are perfect

11 You are my treasured one; the one I love most in my life

12 Be my steady

15 I am truly sorry, please forgive me

20 Believe me, i'm sincere towards you

21 I'm devoted to you

24 Can't stop thinking about you, 24hrs everyday

33 Saying I love you with great affection

36 I'll remember our romantic moments

40 My love for you is genuine

50 Regretless love

99 I'll love you as long as i live

100 Harmoniously together in a century; remaining devoted as couple

101 You are my one and only love

108 Pls marry me

365 Can’t stop thinking about you, each and everyday

999 Everlasting and Eternal love

1000 Ready to open roses store.. HAHAS!!

well... that's about all yeah... good luck in peeps that are in a relationship XD