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Thursday, June 26, 2008

haiz.. today was another boring day... go school... study like nerd.. then a guy kept staring at me... FREAKY!! then after that blah blah blah.. then blah blah blah.. then when to the indoor stadium to watch the priview of the SYF opening =D

after that went with mummy[amanda] to meet up with daddy[hongyeow] and lao dong gua[sen teck] to have dinner... everything was going fine until when we are about to go home and things started happenin... then blag blag blag... continue to walk to the bus stop then the bus come daddy nv even say baibai then just zhao.. ok then cut da crap...

went up to bus then ask lao dong gua wat happen.. then he say that... we at the coffee shop cannot any how play with forks and stuff... then blah blah blah... then we get down and i waited for my REAL dad to fetch me back home..

anyway, to round off.. maybe i should not just laugh things of and always ACTIN that im happy since no one even cherish wat i did

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

hey guess wat!! today is BORING man!!! XD
im lame rite? boring also still so happy like that... hahas! actaully is not la.. im very stress de.. but i donno how to say it and i don even look like im stress ba.. -.-'' i know... there must be something wrong! hahas! reached home and played audi with maple for awhile... and talkin bout that, maple and i are always playing 8k... and when we wanted to 4k, we CANT!! LOL!!
we are too use to 8k keys man.... die die die!! but not too bad la.. since 8k is much better XD

was kinda "doing my homework" when its just on my table stoning!!! LOL.. i cant seem to get the compre story in my head.. it seems like hell man... and this few days my daddy [hongyeow] has decided to go into a trend of kissing that have been saying " muackz muackz " to almost everyone... including GUY!!! style rite style rite?! i haven even get a hang of that yet and yet my daddy did it!! OMG!!

during school its the funny thing... in the morning at assembly, there was something really small just went on to me.. then when i look.. it just went still lookin like some bigger particals of small small sand that hit me.. when i stare at it.. its also back in colour and had 2 yellow dots.. so tht wat a funny stonny sandy thing.. and the worst is if im not wrong i remembered it fly and landed on me... so i was like puzzled for a moment... but still, i still decided to pick the thing up from my skirt and placed it on the floor...

im actually suppose to be hearing the announcement but just that the stonny thingy look SO cute that i cant help but to stare at it.. XD ok... i know im lame... but really lor!! very cute leh!! =D.. okok then later after staring at it for sometime, it MOVED!!!!! omg!! omg!! it actaully MOVED!!!!! XD then i sort of like realise that actaully that stonny thingy was really a lady bug!!
whish is SO CUTE!! that is so TINY!! and im happy to see it!! =D

okok.. shall cut the crap and move on.. XD baibai^^

Monday, June 23, 2008

i just hate my parents la... ok la.. cannot say hate.. maybe don really like them ba...
haiz... its like i donno y they r NEVER happy with what the fuck i do.. and everything they talk to me about is studies... i know that studies are like bloody important to me at the point of time now la.. but y like cant they ever understand how i feel? and the worst is every single time when i try to tell them how i feel they always treat it as im BULLSHITTING for my mother..
and for my dad, no matter wat i say he can have a damn way to link it up to studies...

at least like parents could say somethings that give their child moral support rite? and my dad is like just telling me.. " shermeen, u have NEVER pass ur maths this yr... not even ONCE... u think about it. " im like i already know and felt bad.. and he is like soo making it worst for me and after still continue saying other subjects... and im sure if my parents ever see this, they will say " wa.. how can a child say such a thing like dislike their parents?! parents work soooo hard to earn the damn money to raise their kid up and here is my kid complaining about me saying that we don care for her enough or don love her"

its not like im a attention seeker u know... and i am NEVER one.. cuz i don really like too much attention.. but if u ever imagine ur parents only tells u things about STUDIES and NOTHING ELSE. haiz... i donno what the hell am i thinking la... maybe like some of my freinds say, they love me but i don feel it.. but if i DON feel it, then wat for continuing their way of loving me?! like damn dumb rite? din they like go for some course that teach them the 5 ways of showing affection to others? some ppl like it in some way and some do not.

and for you info ppl. you all may not know but im a MONEY MINDED person.. and like wats wrong? i don mind saying it to you all that are reading my bloggy wat.. but i am also a person that believes money is NOT everything and that sometimes my mother will just like give me $10? and.... ya thats all... i feel that at least my parents should show some care and concern for me rite? but the worst thing is that, if im not wrong my dad tried to show me his CARE n CONCERN before but its like TOALLY FREAKING me out ok... i don like his way of showin care to me... and my mother, worst.... im totally speechless about it...

she never ever believe in me and always saying that i have a boyfriend when i DON even have since i din even accept any.. and there she will go blabbing away saying that i have one. can u like the fuck imagine u OWN MOTHER NOT BELIEVING IN U?! hard to imagine rite? she would rather believe others then her own damn child... -.-'' and looking at me in the eyes as though waiting for me to confess that im like really in the wrong when im not...

NOW u know that I have probs too? when my parents only think that THEY have problems and I DON HAVE ANY!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

ok man!!! im here to write about what happen on my BIRTHDAY!!!

ok.. its like daddy [hongyeow] , ivan and lao dong gua [sen teck] came to my block downstairs first.. they gave me the present and after receiving, i just went back home as i haven even tie my hair.. [ok.. cuz im still suppose to be sleeping when its already 1pm] LOL!! ok.. keep that to yourself.. no comments needed on that! hahas XD then after like alittle while, i went down and i was stun that i say weisiong, melvin and one of their freind sitting TOGETHER with daddy, ivan and lao dong gua!!!

ok la.. you all might say why like im stun... they cannot be sitting together meh?
im saying that im stun because last time cause of me both parties were "bu shuang" with each other and ya.. can say a fight nearly broke out. its was scary i tell u!! lolxD
and the next moment on my birthday they were like sitting happily TOGETHER somemore!!

hahas soon mummy[amanda] , kelvin, yue han, lengchye and leon came!! but of cuz before that ashley came first!! XD and they brought the cake and its chocolate cake!! from angie's choice. =D
good rite good rite? i know i know thats y i love my freinds so much! LOLXD. then they sang birthday song for me.. without a conductor and another one saying he can't sing as he is not a choir member -.-'' and that guy was YUE HAN!! aiya but in the end he sang the song too!! ^^ hahas!!

and here comes the cake cutting part!! of cuz its mummy help me cut de la... if give me cut ar... i tell u the cake can don eat le.. LOL! ok.. then we gave daddy damn damn big piece cut by me!! and after giving the rest cake, mummy, kelvin, yue han, leon, lengchye and i ate directly on the cake with just a fork! hahas!

talking after that... we had a cake fight man!! and MELVIN put cream on the NEW SHIRT that ashley gave me!! urg... talking about that i was so pissed man!! he just make me like wtf like that sia... so of cuz i gave chase to make him back.. but he run so fast like a flying pig like that i cant even catch up with him. so in the end of cuz there are ppl that help me...^^
at first was me and kelvin.. but we still din managed to catch him as he was running in the carpark and i din wanna gave chase cuz like dangerous mah...

but after that, things change man!! lao dong gua, kelvin and if im not wrong ivan gave chase to catch melvin!! like war hor... then i think beverley, maple and yin man went to 7-11 to buy drinks. after making the melvin i was happy^^ although i din get the chance to make him myself.

i went back home to change and lend mummy a shirt so that she can change too^^ ok.. and then we rot at my room for awhile and went back downstairs... everything was fun until in the late afternoon when beverley, maple and yin man went MIA [missing in action] then lao dong gua and i had to find them... and then alittle while later beverley's contact lenses are hurting her eye and she do not know how to take it out.. so i got ashley to help her to take it out since she wears contact lens before too^^ ashley had a really hard time taking out the lens for beverley as her eyes kept moving... but in the end it was taken out!!! XD

ok.. then everybody was so freaking sian with each other and we don't even know where to go la.. then i was like kinda piss off la.. but i didn't really show it la... then since beverley, maple and yin man had to be back by 7pm. i decided to send them off first being afraid that they will get scolded their parents.. =] hope they do had a fun time.

after that we went to continue rotting and walkin.. and i donno where we went.. and after that we had dinner at paragon if not wrong.. then after dinner, for some reason i went super hyper!! and ashley, mummy and i went to desiao yue han!! hahas! it was so fun at that point of time ok!! because yue han look soooo SIAN.. i cannot stand it so i got his number from mummy's hp and i sms him.. and i remember that he do not know who am i since he don know my number i din intend to let him know! LOLXD and i told mummy about it as she was sitting beside me.. and mummy told ashley that was sitting beside her!! =D

and funny thing is when yue han send a sms, he will be looking at me to see if i got look at my hp anot.. and in order to make it not obvious, when i was looking at my handphone, mummy and ashley took out their handphone and look at it and when i was replyin his sms its the same thing.. so yue han got confused~~!!!! =D
then suddenly mummy told me that yuehan comfirm know that its not her.. then i was like wondering why.. then mummy tell me cause yue han got her number what... AND THATS WHEN I TOTALLY REMEMBERED MAN!!! TUE HAND GOT HER NUMBER!!! thats why ashley was helping out to bluff him as well hahas!!

ok la.. overrall we had a great time!! thanks my lovely freinds!! XD

Friday, June 20, 2008

Today is a really bad day for me...
morning i went to choir.. and the instructor did not come... the whole choir was slacking and that no one was really training in choir.. although we are always singing but it do no mean that we are actually putting effort. the whole thing was just damn SIAN.

after choir, i went to have lunch with my friends maple and beverley.. and went home... right after went home change the books in my bag and left home for piano again...
my teacher wasn't there..... and another teacher took over.. in order to not make it as though as its a big deal as maybe my piano teacher has something on and that she couldn't come today..
i gave a lovely smile to the teacher and have my paino lesson...

i guess that was the last smile i gave away... after my piano lesson, it was my mummy's turn [amanda] and i went to the counter like i always do..
i asked Ms kong, the person at the counter.. where is my teacher and why didn't she come today..

the reply was shocking........................

her reply to me was, your teacher is not working here anymore.. feeling stun by what she said, i only gave a reply saying "huh?"
and i asked again.. and the same answer came back to me saying that she is not going to be working here anymore and will be getting another teacher to teach me. and she will not teaching me anymore...

right after i heard what Ms kong said, my heart sank into the depts of the sea that i can't find it back.. then i was sooo sad.. so sad until i wanna cry...
i left the piano place quicky and while walking back home, i gave a call to my daddy [hong yeow]... telling him that i was really sad... but he don seem to be saying any nice comforting stuff to me and instead say that its ok...
well... i guess maybe his freinds were with him and he cant say any sensitive stuff to me ba..
so i just told him that i would hang and just kept thinking about the matter... do not even know where i was walking, i nearly got bang by a car which was driving pass...

even after that, i don feel a thing.. when i went home and turn on my computer, beverley was the first one to chat with me... so as usual, i told her i was sad...
and her reply was " LOL!! "
y no one ever think how sad i could be feeling and how hurt i feel?
i felt like crying and awhile later, daddy[hongyeow] called
i cannot stand it anymore and i started crying...
and for some reason i donno why he know i am crying as i din make any sound...
i was so so sad and i recall what he said when i call him just now and i felt that no one really knows how i feel and i was really sad...
my daddy[hongyeow] said sayang.. and after that i donno whats wrong with me.. when im very very sad, once i hear comforting words.. my tears will start flowing non-stop... and i wanted to actually tell him i was very very sad... but i donno why when i wanna say to him my tears start flowing even more.. and in the end i just hang his call...

sorry daddy.... din mean to do that..

after that cry for like 15 minutes and stop alittle while and cry again...
i also donno why i cry... when my best friend also known as my maid left me, i cried for 6months... maybe im the type of gal that cant accept the fact of my friends disappearing in my life... i cant take it.. imagine not seeing them ever again...

you all might think that im stupid or dumb...
since its only just a piano teacher.. and its just meant for u to learn piano from her...
but ppl have feelins u know... and thinking that i will not be seeing her just hurts me deep inside..
she is the piano teacher i deSiao alot with.. and she is just like a good friend to me...

and right now im still crying... and my parents are back... looking so happy and all coming to see me and its my birthday tommorrow... and they are celebrating for me today since tommorrow i will be hanging out with me freinds... and i have to try my best to hide my tears away and still look as happy as ever...

hope that i will still be able to see my piano teacher.. and love her lots!

MeeN is trying hard to smile....

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

oh man... yoz ppl!!

im back to blog man... i know u all miss my wonderful stories or maybe miss me rite? XD
don say im bhb la... AND actaully i deleted the blog that i use last time.. but i ended up using the same name again as i can't thinkin of anything else to put.. XD

okok... maybe u might be thinkin now.. " huh? are you LAME " eh! i tell you ar.. im not ok..
im am NOT LAME!! hahas! okie.. so further on i will start saying about my life stories again.. and do hope that you all will understand my feelings even more =D

Lets get to the main point. Alot of things have happen lately and i don't really know whether i am able to cope with it or not.. Firstly, i really do want the best for my friends but sometimes they would think that i am like scolding them. Actually what i did was " ALL for Your Own GOOD " hahas xD sound familiar ya... hehes.. ok la.. since today is already late..
and i can't remember what happen today.. except that i met Liliang to go do homework but in the end is i only do and she BRING my homework home to copy.. LOLS!
ok la don't bad mouth le.. later she kill me then im DOOM!!! hahas =D
OH OH OH!! and i remember me throwing away my umbrella.. that is BRANDED from Esprite u know! but i was lazy and its wet so i just threw it away...

The funny thing is when i met Liliang, she asked where is my umbrella. i just pointed to the dustbin and there was my umbrella~ XD she laugh like some Siao ASSHOLE [ not scolding ppl but its the IN thing hahas! ] and she threw her's into the dustbin TOO!! woots!! XD

i know i know... u all might think we r SIAO.. or maybe we really are.. hahas! ok la.. i shall end here...

May the ppl who are sad don't be sad and the ppl that r stress don't be stress and may the ppl who are Happy continue to be HAPPY!! =D

HappyAlways