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Wednesday, July 30, 2008

ok.. as usual i came back from school and today i have donno how many tons of test...
TEST UNTIL I HECK CARE THE TEST... LOL cant believe it rite?
hahas... ok.. came back home and saw my cousin sitting at my door step...
i was stun and so asked like why the hell is he sitting here?
then he said that there was no one at home so he was waiting outside.. and HENG i GOT THE KEY!!! MUAHAHAHAS!! LOLXD

okok.. then i din eat lunch.. soon, my mother called up saying about dinner ask me wanna go out and eat anot.. i wan like OK! thats great!! it have been a long time before i eat Singapore food... so i was happy.. then suddenly now she say she don wanna go!

then the reason is cuz your korkor this korkor that.. and the MAIN REASON was actaully cuz MY MOTHER IS LAZY AND SHE SAY CUZ SHE NEEDA CHANGE HER CLOTHES IF WE ARE GOING OUT!!
my reaction was like wth? then almost everytime when i wanna go out to eat, my bro don wan only ALL CANNOT GO. now u know y i spend so much time with my friends?
CUZ MY BLOODY FAMILY IS SOOOOOO BUSY EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY THAT ALMOST EVERYBODY CANT TAKE TIME OUT!!!

then when i show attitude then my father came in and say that we will be going out to eat.. then im like wtf? im already doing my work le then they say go out... make me sound as if im damn demanding... all i wan is a family outing and they cant give it to me... then my father just said the word very sad. and walk out of the damn room?

im like SO? you wan blame, BLAME UR WIFE LA! and DON FORGET, U ALL MADE ME CRY BEFORE I LEFT CHINA. CUZ U ALL SAID I WAS DIFFICULT OR WAT CRAP! AND WORSE, I CAN STILL RMB THAT MY OWN MOTHER DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT I WAS LIKE GOING OVERSEAS WHEN IM GOING OFF THE NEXT DAY~~~!!!

the reason they give me is.. cuz we are very tired too.. HELLO?! u ppl are not the only ones that are tired ok?! SO AM I!! and pls lor.. if u all don even cherish the time u have with me then LET IT BE!

everytimes teachers say got any problem with ur parents, u have to tell them how u feel and stuff.. LIKE AS IF I NEVER TRY!! i tell me mother the time she treat is as if IM BULLSHITTING!! and don even pay attention to what i say~~!!!
then when i got anything i will just go on msn or blog to express how i feel or share then they will be like there saying " SHERMEEN WHY EVERYDAY U R ON THE COMPUTER! CANT U JUST SPEND SOME TIME WITH UR FAMILY?! or do homework or watever crap " then im like when i went up to u all then EVEN TRIED TO TELL U HOW I FEEL, DO U ALL EVEN GIVE A SHIT CARE TO ME ANOT! if u don care then let me just hang and my COM la!

my family are the ones that make me cry the most... i have my limits... U ALL WATCH IT.
and for ppl that are dumb enough to even say meen no matter what happen to u i will be there for u and all those crap! SAVE IT! I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE MUSHY CRAP AND DON EVEN DARE TO QUESTION ME ABOUT THIS AND DON U PPL TRY TO CONSOLE ME CUZ I WILL FEEL SO SICK OF IT AND I WILL PUKE!

MeeN is going to explode.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

eh ppl! u all better listen ok... no one better tell me to post anything regarding my trip..
if i happy happy then maybe next time then post.

and for all of ur info, CAN PPL THAT TREAT ME COLDLY DON TREAT ME SO COLDLY AND FOR PPL THAT IS OVERLY NICE TO ME JUST STOP IT!!!
i think im siao le.. but too much things have been happening lately and i just hate it.

and hello? from my point of view to ppl that needs it, please to being so proud and full of yourself because sometimes u just don't know what you are actually getting into. and since i have been dumb showing concern to almost everybody and getting back ill remarks like shouting at me saying " you don't needa know " or " its none of your problem "

from now on, i wont give a damn F**King care to everything~! ARSEHOLES! you ppl just freaking F**K off my life ty.

MeeN is the best in her world! SUCKAS ARE NOT WELCOME~!

Saturday, July 19, 2008

okie ppl!!! im off to suzhou!!! don miss me so much ok?! XD

hmmm... i will miss ppl like... ashley..amanda..hongyeow..kelvin..carmen leon yueqin..nasrathul..delon..raychard..xianwen and i think yue han ba... if not later say i nv put. LOL XD

seriously la.. i will miss u guys.. when im not here rmb ar.. no matter wat happens just rmb me and be HappyAlways!!! XD

MeeN loves and misses ~~ MUACKS MUACKS!! LOL!!

Friday, July 18, 2008

can u believe it?! im going overseas tmr and my parents don even know?! and then i was like so pissed with me mother at mummy's [amanda] house that i cried after talking to my mother on the phone.. i mean like what am i to her?! she don't even know that im going overseas tommorrow?! like WHAT THE FUCK?! i donno then i went fucking sad...

then me and mummy went out to get stuff for overseas... and i haven even pack my stuff... then i even had to borrow clothes from mummy cause i don have enough clothes.. i sound very pathetic right? and my mother could give me the answer saying that " you are trying to tell me that i nv buy clothes for you?! the fila clothes i buy for you LAST time leh?! " so i said it in the bloody sarcastic way that oh she bought alot of clothes for me..

then later bought a couple ring with amanda.. then went back to her house to collect the clothes and waited for my dad to fetch me.. and we had a fucking disagreement in the car! and came back to the house he just shout in the house saying im DIFFICULT! then i cant even voice out my feelings to anyone in the family if not they will just say " WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS SO SENSITIVE?!?! WHATS YOUR PROBLEM!?!? " then i can only sms my freinds and like tell them how i feel.. and this has already been going on for very long.. i donno how long can i last... [ and maybe thats y my sms-es are high ] wtf! this is what i get?!

IF IM THAT DIFFICULT IN THE FIRST PLACE THEN DON'T BORN ME LA! WHY WANNA FUCK SO MUCH! BLOODY FUCKERS!!! SOMEIMTES I JUST HATE YOU ALL!! DON EVEN THINK ABOUT HOW I FEEL!! AND NOW IM LIKE CRYING LIKE A PIECE OF SHIT WHEN TYPING AND MY GRANDMOTHER JUST CAME IN AND SAW IM CRYING!

.................. i just can't believe the fact im being treated as NOTHING in my family.. i know my freinds will tell me don't sad all that.. but how man how?! my OWN PARENTS don even give a damn about me EVEN when im going overseas?! many a times i just feel like being gone from this family if that would make everyone happier since i bring so much PROBLEMS to this DAMN FAMILY.

MeeN is crying and her heart has sunk so deep and it seems to be lost forever.....

Thursday, July 17, 2008

its kinda weird ok.... like one of ur good friend just saw you and was walkin directly towards u.. and ur good friend can just take it as she din even see u and just continue walking and still chatting with her other freinds as though u r a piece of shit..

hey... that's wat happen to me today ok.. i was in the canteen and this happened.. to my "friend" if u EVEN KNOW WHO ARE U! if u don regard me as your friend just say it... or u find it a bother to even say hi to me... its like wtf? i was directly infront of u and u cant see me? i don't believe lor.. i was not born yesterday.

and please.. if u r not happy with me just say it.. don just heck care me when u see me.. you just like totally make me feel as though im like UN-WANTED and i bloody hate that feeling.. if any other ppl read my blogy and see this, don't you even dare come and ask me who... unless i tell u about it myself. before today u heck care me, i already felt that u don't really wanna talk to me that much and ALWAYS show me attitude..

i burried all my anger and just swallowed all the bloody shit attitude u gave me and there u go thinking that u r some kind of god... hello? if u treat me like this? actaully u r like just a piece of shit to me too ok? being to kind to u is my weakness.. and some kind of shit friend u are. if you don like me just tell me ok?! don act like a BITCH. cuz u r a F**KER.

okok don talked bout that... =] today i went to amanda's new house there and slack!! XD supposingly to be doing homework but i have NONE! hahahas!! okok cut the crap.. but actaully i pratically just rot there la.. oh ya.. and bianca thanks for helping me reform my beads that r in the bottle.. I LOVE YOU!! XD and sry that i could not make it back home in time to at least spend some time with u before u go back home.. SORRY!

and hope that my darling/stead/dear the hand or where ever your injuries are, hope they recover soon!!!! LOVE YOU TOO!! XD [mummy don jealous ar... ilove u too.. LOL ]

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

today! my cousin was still stayin at my house since Monday as she have no school.. GOOD RITE?! i know i know... hahas okie.. so when i was in school she played audition the WHOLE day and when i came back its my turn!! XD hahas

okok than after that she wanted to do beads as she say my beads are very nice.. so i was like ok.. lets do. then we did a necklace.. like a choker.. very elegent XD.. but after all the hard worked i put in upon doing the necklace, finally its DONE!!! okok then i was like freakin happy and tired.. but since it was done im happy! =D

so i told my cousin to show it to my grandmother, father and my mother.. since its so lovely and she said its lovely too... but when she wore the choker, her hairstyle and the choker don't really match.. and she she refuse to show my parents and even my grandmother she also don't wanna show.. and she just went to put it in her bag...

And like of course i was kinda sad... my reaction was like " huh?! i did for u until like so nice when its UR necklace and i am the one doing and i miss my TV show.. when u r like watchin it? and although i don't mind, but now that its done u don't even like wanna show it as though what i make is like damn ugly that cannot be seen by ppl if not others will laugh.." but of course i did not say it out la... but since my cousin [ bianca ] has given me such a "SIAN" face to like call her to go show will wan her life like that.. so...

i just told her.. if u don't wanna show then go keep it in your bag lor... and like thats all..
abit diao rite? i make like shit and she keep in her bag.. LOL..
haiz but nvm la.... she is the cousin that i cherish the most mah... so just let it be ba.. =]

MeeN is feeling a little down...

Saturday, July 12, 2008

hey!! today i broke the record in my LIFE!!!! ok.. hmmm... i woke up at 3pm in the afternoon... and then skip breakfast and lunch.... and online.. but no one was online on msn...
and rot till bout 6 plus then i receive a call from my pri school freind that there was a gathering today!!! and even my pri school form teacher was there!!!

so of cuz i ran to the living rm to tell my dad about it. my mother suddenly POPED out of nowhere and over heard the conversation that i was having with my dad and she just said a big NO! then im like.. but even my form teacher is going! why can't i go?! its not like i meet my pri school friends EVERYDAY?!?! and after my mother went back to her room, my dad said, " shermeen, since its ur pri school class gathering and even your form teacher is there, LETS GO! "

the next moment im like OMG DAD I LOVE U!!!!!!!! hahas XD ok... then i got myself change and everything like that... and my LOVELY dad send me there!!! XD then after that... i don't know the way to jeffery house since we are going his house for BBQ... so my good pri school friend xian wen and raychard walked to the bus stop and wait for me and they hop on the car to help my dad with the directions XD thanks!!! hahas!

ok when we reach, since my pri school class there is only 4 girls [including me] and 30 boys. i was the ONLY girl there! but my phobia did not react since there is my form teacher and we are like good old friends being together again!! XD okok.. then when i was walking to the BBQ area, there was this bunch of half naked guys there.. and i did not wear my glasses so... i was like telling xian wen who are they man... then xian wen told me that they are my classmates then im like OMG! lolxD

okies... then they welcome me.. and i ate chicken wings.. and we chit chat alot... and then my classmate they all look so different... [ except for u raychard.. LOL ] like xian wen grew much taller.. and jeffery became really handsome.. [not kidding man!! quite shuai leh!! oh ya and he actaully studies at the states and came back singapore to visit only] ok.. then everyone of us went taller and we became taller then Mrs yit!!! [ my form teacher] was the shortest!!! hahas!!
when last time she was the tallest of us all XD ok then bryan became like so... strong so much muscle... power man... hahas okie after chatting and all, Mrs yit's darling went to fetch her back and we all went to jeffery house and play ps2 and some play xbox and other play cards and lots of other stuff xD

then xian wen treat us for ice cream but i did not eat... -.-'' cuz i suddenly have no appitite at all.. but xian wen was kind enough to offer his ice cream to me and share it with me.. XD thanks ya! hahas ok then i played halo.. but keep feeding.. cuz can't control properly.. and then later raychard parents send me back home! XD

and thanks jeffery [for acting as my bf], bryan [for giving wonder ideas] and benjamin [ for Laughing Out Loud ] LOL!!! in the role of bluffing shan wei and scaring him off on the phone.. LOL!!! XD and thats about all. hahas!

MeeN had FUN!! XD

Thursday, July 10, 2008

ok... hahas!! i am actaully kinda speechless.. ^^

but ok... relax ppl... no matter what happen to amanda and me wont last forever... if we ever were pissed with each other or wat so ever, things will be fine just the next day!! so yeah.. and today nth much happen.. actually wanted to make IC today de.. but no one pei me.. so endded up not going and stay home with amanda. NONO!! wrong .. is amanda came over to my house to do homework tgt! XD hahas!

ok the funny thing about today is when my mummy [ amanda ] was going home.. and i send her down to wait for the bus... HAHAHAHAHAHAS!!! cant help but just to LaughOutLoud!!! hahas. i bet that if mummy were to read this she will be saying.. " shermeen u shut up! " hahas!!
but too bad!! im still gonna say wat happen.. the thing i will put it short and sweet so its not funny enough for you all to imagine wat happen.. LOL!

ok she was waiting at the bus stop and the bus driver went into the bus... but actually the bus its like not going to go off de.. its just the bus driver went in the do something then mummy look at me and say baibai^^... then HAHAHAHA don wan say le.. LOL

i shall stop here ^^

Saturday, July 5, 2008

I M FUCKING PISSED OFF WITH MY PARENTS!!!

wth i just don even give a damn on what happen la! i cant even vent my anger on a single fucking person and and so i just have to write it in the bloody fucking stupid blog here how i actaully feel la!! like one idiot rite? ASSHOLE!!

i was like out with my friends in the morning and then actaully suppose to be going to the carnival, but just because amand had the GOS thingy and she had ended i thought that she would be coming along with me and carmen.. and like since carmen told me to meet at common wealth MRT station the bus stop there.. i thought like " hey, that is at amanda's new house. Maybe she will be able to come with us! XD " and thats what i thought in the first place as i always wanted to go out with my freinds and not leaving anyone out.

As usual, i gave a call to amanda asking her not to go back to her old house and just go to her new house instead. and her reply was that she was all sweaty and sticky that she needed to take a bath... so i said like.. why don't you take a bath at your new house? so she was like okie and like we hang the phone and i was like ready to go to common wealth too^^ and than its like who in the hell would know that amanda do not have the key to her parent's room and so she can't take the clothes in the room. and when i call her she gave me that kind of fucking "xia lan" attitude and even hang my call. and i decided to give a call back [ EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THAT SHE WAS LIKE PISS WITH ME?! ] and i still like bother to call back and she off her handphone or wat crap and it can't even get through.

After that, carmen told me that amanda hang up her call too!! so as a good friend and nuer. i just like FUCKING gave up on the thought of even going to the carnival and just went up her house to check out what is actaully happening to her? and instead, guess wat man.. she was like complaining to Ashley when i went up to her house with carmen? and like she was pissed with me cuz i told her to go back to her old house? [ i mean like i know if i were u i would also be piss off la] but hello? YOU are the one that told me your new house you have no clothes wat. that what you wan me to say to you? of course is to go back to your old house wat. there is not much choice that i can say to you mah.

ok then drop the subject. amanda, carmen and I went down amanda's block to wait for a bus to go to Plaza Sing. On the bus, amanda is like still seem to be piss? and putting myself in her shoes as well im like taking my emotions well? and that she just told me " shermeen, do you know just now im damn fucking piss off with you? like i come here liao then you call me to go back my old house? like wtf la. So i complain to leon and ashley. " and thats like wat she told me? hahas and for all of your info, Amanda is my BEST friend. =) what a nice friend i got ya?

during the journey i was like as per normal, trying to control my temper.. and actaully i felt quite relucten going out already. and carmen receive a call from leon saying that they are still at VIVO? and ask us if we could like catch the later moive at 6 plus.. and i got like that sian attitude and i just said " aiya all don go la all don go. the movie is so late then might as well don go le" and carmen was like in a stuck position and then amanda just told carmen saying " oh! 6 plus is fine. shermeen will be able to de. go ahead and tell leon the moive at 6 plus is fine with us "

i wanted to just say its like it will end so late and my parents are like trying all meants and ways to get me HOME as EARLY as they can la. then ok.. we reach Plaza Sing le i was like SO sian down there and only amanda and ashley is able to go "high" by themselves. we waited quite a long while for kelvin [ not kelvin TING but another kelvin, ashely's friend ] and then we went to have an early dinner and after that catch the 6 plus movie.

After the moive we have no where to go, and ashley said that she was thirsty to kelvin said to get a drink at 7eleven. then after we get a drink we have no where to go again. soon, carmen went home as she have service the next day and that i wanted to go home too.. so i went to take a bus and amanda went up the bus with me.. later she told me like why go home so early? so since we are already on the bus, the only place that we are left with and able to go is amanda's new house. so we called the rest since they did not get up the bus to take the next bus 111 to go to common wealth. amanda then wanted me to stay over at her house since its already quite later and no point going back to her old house. i told amanda that i am not sure if my parent would let me stay over at your new house. [ knowing my parent... even if amanda's house is near mine, they SURE WONT LET DE! and i donno y.. their reason will just be.. its not safe] ok.. so i asked amanda saying i am not sure if i can go your house. but if you were to call your parents to ask if you could stay over your new house and not to go back your old house to stay anot.. and if after even if your parents allow you to stay and after i call my own parents to ask and if they don allow will you still be able to go back your old house.

and amanda said ya even if my parents don allow later on when i ask them, she just ask her parents first cause even if i cant stay over at her house she would still be able to go home. [ and of course before that i already call ashley they all to come to common wealth at amanda's house.] and when amanda call her parents, can tell by amanda's talking tone and the reply she gave her parents is that her parents don allow her to stay at her own new house and that can tell they are having an arguement over this. not able to talk.. i type on my hp telling her that since i also might not be able to stay over night at your house and your parents also don allow you to stay then no point arguing with your parents also la.. just forget it ba..

so amanda hang her mother's call and later look at me with those attitude eyes telling me " i don even know why the hell you wanna come my house lor. i seriously donno lor.. and YOU are the one that wan to come my house de lor and cause my to argue with my mother " .... i was like stun for a few seconds as like amanda like say this to me? i know she is like piss off with me la but like has it ever occur to her that i also have feelings too? and like just without considering my feelings and she said something like this to me and it all became my fault. Being speechless, i just said to her.. " er... ok " and like she just gave that attitude and we went silent for the whole journey.

and on the journey which is like 9.55pm, my dad just sms me saying " shermeen make sure you be back home before 10pm " ... then my first reaction is like " wtf? now is 9.45 you wan me to get home before 10pm and i haven even reach amanda's house yet and even AMANDA is piss off with me. the point is not reaching before 10pm. but its that ashley, kelvin and leon are like on the other bus 111 and the bus that amanda and i are on has not EVEN reach common wealth! and my dad wan my to get home before 10? the worse is that like how am i going to tell ashley they all that i needa go home when they are already on the bus 111 to go to common wealth... [ i mean like its like very wat rite? you tell people to come and then they on the way le then you have to go home ]

its like i also feel very bad wat... and amanda is STILL like piss with me? and so i decided to call ashley to say that i got to go home by 10pm? then i told amanda to go home first.. and amanda just stand up and walk off.. and when i said bye to her she din even bothered to turn back and say bye or even look at me. is like you all can even understand how i feel anot? im like stressing over my freinds and my family? like wtf is this la? im trying to make more time for my freinds and i got this attitude from my freinds and my parents are so demanding asking me to go home? and i mean its like if they wanna ask me to be back by 10pm at least tell me earlier rite?

ok then like since i am like sorry cuz i got to go home, i waited for ashley, kelvin and leon the bus 111 and got up the bus since my house is at the terminal interchange. and that ashley and kelvin were not piss off with me la.. [ im glad.. thanks guys!! ] but heard that leon was kinda piss off.. but i could also understand why la.. im sorry too.. its not wat i intended to be doing... ok.. when i reach home.. no one even bothered to look at who is at the door and so i greeted my parents saying that im home.. and my dad went into my room and so i told him saying " daddy, you very good ya? asking me to be back before 10pm and sending me a sms at 9.45pm.. i can fly home ya? " then i like got pissed from my friends thats y i said such a sarcastic thing to my dad and my dad just told me say.. " hahas erm... i am not the one who send the sms to you.. i was mummy that send you the sms when i was bathing "

Guess wat? my first reaction was like i TOTALLY FELT BEING CHEATED LA! although u may say its also your parents wat.. its the same mah.. BUT ITS NOT LOR... THE FEELING IS LIKE CRAP LA. pls lor GOT OWN HANDPHONE DON USE WAN TO USE OTHER PPL HANDPHONE TO SMS ME.. stupid la! and actaully my freinds and i sort of already knew that it was my mother that did it.. and as usual for my characther, i HATE the most is people lying to me. and my parents like just did? im like so fucked up and piss off lor.. thats when i showed attitude to my dad. and my dad is like still complaining about my table blah blah blah saying its messy and wat shit stuff.. and i just took the things and go wash it up. my dad went to where i am and shouted at me saying " YOU ARE ACTING AS IF I OWN U A MILLION DOLLARS! I DON OWN YOU ANYTHING OK! AND I HATE YOUR BLOODY ATTITUDE " and than he just use his own cups and bang the rest of the cups [ JUST TO SHOW THAT HE WASNT HAPPY WITH ME! WTF! ]

So, i hate care and just continue washing my cup and i got totally fucking piss off with wat he say and after im done washing, i just bang my cups against the rest of the cups as well and storm off to my room. and then my mother was like " shermeen... shermeen... SHERMEEN! " then i was like so pissed i just push my keyboard in and just stand up and storm to her room and before she could say anything i look at her and said " I DON LIKE YOUR ATTITUDE! " and i storm back to my room... and as usual, the person my mother would be, she came to my room and KPKB and scolding me like a piece of shit or even worse.. and the last sentence she say is " WHY ARE YOU SO SENSITIVE! THINKING THAT PPL ALWAYS SCOLD YOU! "

HARLOW?! if you think thats called sensitive, you try going through wat i have gone through and you tell me if its sensitive! MY PARENTS DON EVEN PUT THEMSELVES IN MY SHOES WHY MUST I BE SO NICE TO PPL!

i have totally learn a listen... the moral of the whole thing is, no point being so nice to anyone as no one will ever appreciate what you did. and trying to be HappyAlways so that your friends wont be affected by your mood and thinking that everything is always going so fine for you is USELESS!! IF YOU ALL DO NOT CHERISH WHAT I TRY TO DO FOR ALL MY FREINDS AND FAMILY THEN FORGET IT! FROM NOW ON I WILL DO WAT I WANNA DO WITHOUT CARING OF HOW YOU ALL FEEL! [ although i know i wont be able to do that, but i will try! knowing that wat i do will never be appreciated by OTHERS!

Friday, July 4, 2008

oh man.. im really really very sorry for the ppl that have been worrying for me... it has been a really bad day for me too... at about 4am in the morning [actual timing is 3.58] i was as usual in my dream land and i felt there is pain at the stomach lower part.. i tht it was just a dream but the pain continued.. its unbearable and i decided to open my eyes...

suddenly i realise that its not a dream at all and its really VERY VERY pain!! and i also don't know what happen.. and i tried to sit up and rest... but least to my expectation, as i was trying to sit up, the pain got SO MUCH WORSE that i can't even get up.. and i just when straight down feeling freaking pain la.. and im like sweating and feeling really pain.. wanted to get my parents attention about this.. but being a nice girl, i put myself in their shoes thinking that they would have to go to work later and not to disturb them now.. since i think that even if i ask them they can't do anything too..

so i called my "daddy"[hongyeow] to tell him that i was in pain.. and... daddy sorry to disturb u!! i know u are sleeping but u called back =D
seriously because i sms him and there was no reply... or maybe there is but its too pain and i can't wait so i call.. but he din pick up... [and to tell the truth ar... if its me and im sleeping and someone were to call me.. i don think i would even pick up or maybe i will feel pissed if i were to be able to pick uo that call in the middle of the night] and my daddy did!! THANKS!!! LOADS!!!

ok.. then next was awaiting for morning and i notice that my parents are not up to wake my bro who is still sleeping like a piggy yet. so i wanted to get up to wake him but i CAN'T MOVE!! then i felt that i was usless and just remain in bed like a bloody idiot la.. and so i use my handphone to call my father [ real one ar] to get up and wake my bro... and my dad din even realise there is like something wrong with me? like wtf ya? and he just pat me and say wake up 6.15 alreasdy. [imagine i have been bearing the pain for like 2hours already] and after that he just walk away.. and i tried to tell him but i think he is still in his sleeping mode so i decided to rise my voice alittle and at last he NOTICES!! i told him that i was in pain and his eyes bearly even opening and asked if im ok and thinking that i was just lazy to go to school or something..

HARLOW!! if i really can go to school or even just getting out of bed to brush my teeth i won't even be calling him to say im in pain la!! then in the end my father called my mother and then they both went to the room to take a look at me.. and they even still wanted me to go school? crazy idea rite? [ but ok la.. actaully i wanted to go school as well as there is choir practice and i don really wanna let my group down] but sorry... i really can't make it in the end.. the pain was so CRAPPY that i go so sick of it and i cried...

first when i told daddy[hongyeow] the time i got so sad and i cried... and then i was telling my dad later on and i cried... and third when my mother came in to the room and ask how pain is it and i cried again... and my mother just said something to me.. she said, " Hmmmm..... Shermeen, you are a girl that is able to take great pain. And now u are CRYING!! so it must be very pain ya.."

and my reply is like duh.... i mean not pain cry for wat... haiyo.. and in the end i got everyone so worried sick for me... haiz.. a big big SORRY!!! and i hope i wil get better soon!! XD