im so crapped up la... friends problem still never mind... i totally don't know what the hell is exactly wrong with my dad la.. its like what the fuck? every single day he is coming home look at me with that attitude eyes of his.. and its not like only for today you know? it is like, he has been showing me attitude yesterday? and the day before? and at first i thought that it is because of his work load or stuff like that..
But, i realise i was totally wrong la.. its like he is so nice and can laugh, smile and joke with the rest of my family members like my bro and my mum... but when he place his eyes on me is like with that attitude? i mean like what's wrong with you?! you are my father and what the fuck do you want from me? if you were to say that i always show you attitude, can you like reflect on yourself that actually your attitude is like shit to me too? you are always looking with my with that kind of attitude and even claim that i don wanna talk to you or showed you an attitude face.
Pls man, i have like friends problem? and like you all would even bother to ask? what shit parents are you all? and without even concerning me its still fine. without any prove, you both saw that i look down, sad or emotionless at home, and straight, i don even know wat cow sense you all have and thinks that i have got a Boyfriend?! and i already told you that i don have. like whats there to lie about this la? its so lame lor.. and there you go NOT believing in me and looking at me with that doubtfull look? im your OWN BLOOD DAUGHTER leh... ain't you suppose to believe me?
and why did you all even bother to ask hows my day when any comments that i give, in the end you all will just give me a ass attiude and saying all the crap stuff.. as also siding my teachers and ALWAYS think that my teacher is right. if you all always think it that way, then why even bother to ask me?! like im trying to voice out how i feel? and instead you both gave me attitude? than i would rather keep everything to myself.. i have no idea how much i can still bottle this feelings of mine. cause you don even care? im not like jealous or what that you all are spending so much lovely time together with my bro?
cause since long ago, i already can't feel the love from you if you are even giving me any? all you all think of me as is a Rebellious, stubborn, not willing to listen to other's peoples comments? and even more stuff. and if im really that kind of person, why would i still have friends? its like you have put me till the end until i am already scare that you might be piss at me and i would just tell you straight in the face of yours saying " what you wan me to do then you can stop showing me your ass attitude. " and that is what i did today. i said that. but whats your reply? just walking out of me without giving any reply.. its like wtf...
even now my friends are already sick and tired of having me to have this crap "family problem"? but its like what can i do man... the fact is, you are always giving me this attitude you know? and can you believe it is so frequen that my friend can give remarks like.. " haiz.. your parents again ar... you and your parents problem like eat rice like that... everyday also got de.. its Normal la.. " like can you believe my friend said such a thing Not even realising how hurting it is? i mean like who likes to have family problem? and its like even my friends can say its sick and tired already. how about me that is the one that have been experiencing this?
its like my mental health is getting from bad to worse? and no one is even noticing as i hide my feelings when im with my friends? like give me a break man... today i was just making some things out of beads as tomorrow is teacher's day.. and i he saw my beads... so after that i ask him is it nice anot.. and guess whats the comment he gave me... he says with an attitude expression.. " so you are gonna spend your time just on beads..... " [ aiya i don even know did u all get my tune anot.. as im typing it out.. and u cant feel the tone he use to say this? its like just so hurting lor..] and besides, its not as if i spend alot of time doing that rite?
like why must you always put it that way? beads is my hobby what... and there you go not even giving any moral support but just plain hurting words.. its not like i didn't study right? like why do you always have a problem with me? what do you like wat me to do? everyday be some kind of nerd and just study? BUT, sorry man, im totally not that kind of person? i can even bet that if i were to request to you that i wanted to see a shrink... i think you will just laugh you ass of thinking that im bullshitting.
The Ugly Duckling
Im MeeN
And im 16 this year
Want presents on 21st June
I'm a really straight forward person
And i'm Effin Kind alrite?!?! xD
Ok... that's if you're nice to me as well though.. ^^
IM SUPER FRIENDLY TOO!! ;DD
if sometimes i'm lazy to post about my daily life, i'll post stuff about myself like quizzes and tests that i've done so that more peeps will be able to know more about me!!
Super Temperamental and it's like very hard to understand and know what's going on in my mind..
Mood can change in a blink of an eye.. and it can really change to the extreme!
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- Hypocrite
- Garlic
- Acting cute
- Onion
- Stuff toys
- Mushroom
- MY FAMILY
- Guys that use waist bags
- Party SPOILERS
- Overly broken english
- Chinese
- Being caught in the middle
- Being sad
- Ppl that thinks i'm acting
- Sticking to the Rules!
Being HappyAlways is ME! XD
My Mini Chocolate Shop
All pricing of chocs are counted by PER piece.
choices of nuts are Almond or Hazel nut
semi-sweeten dark chocs [$0.50]
semi-sweeten dark chocs with nuts [$0.70]
white chocs [$0.70]
white chocs with nuts [$1]
half dark half white [$1]
half dark half white with nuts [$1.50]
if you want your choc to be customise, letters can be added on one letter per choc.
each letter will have an additional add of [$0.30]
for ordering, please state clearly what type of nuts you want and the rest of the information clearly.
Thanks You!! XD
MeeN
Wishy List! Grant them!! xD
New school bag New specs Apple earpiece Bouquet of flowers
Piano
Personalise mirror
Table full of b'day cakes
Hair food
New sling bag school shoes
More Beads
A globe
Outing shoes
New desk
New handphone
More clothes!!
Watch
Wii Pencil case Psp fatty
Psp slim
Wii
Laptop
