it's been a long long day.. and im really very tired... almost every single day there is at least one test... got 2 shocks in a day.. which is quite an adventure as well ^^ when i reach home.. i lie on my parents bed and told them i was really really tired... and as usual, my mother can ONLY talk things to me that are regarding me school life.. wanting me to get good in this.... wanting me to get good in that.. and like thats all they know?
thinking of it really makes me upset.. my parents call me odd? and like saying to me that im not part of the family? maybe u all might thing so certain things im so emotionless already.. and i just realise that its not what i wanted and that it is because i have not feel any love at all? my parents never once showed me any care and concern until im really sick that i must be really unable to breath, move or that something serious have happen to me, then they will like actually have at least some time to spend on me.. this just makes me feel sick man... for all my life my parents only talk to me about my studies.. and even if they ever made and effort to even change the topic that they wanted to talk to me, they will somehow link back to the normal topic which is about my studies..
and can you like believe it? my parents have been trying to get my brother attention and when i went into the room, she said nothing and when my bro came, she said a whole lot of crap stuff just wanting my bro to reply and that my bro din reply and he came to lie beside me since he is tired as well... like wth rite? i have like already come to a point where i don feel any love from my parents? and maybe thats y to me, my friends are very important... parents? wont side me and give me for any form of support i need.. they would only know how to criticise me and talking this talking that... so what if no matter how they put it, they are the ones that supported me with things i needed from young..
that is like so material? i have never been brought up by them at all? and my grandmother only wants to take care of my bro and that i was being left to a maid to takecare of me? im glad that i have a maid as a best friend.. although she is a maid, she is as though my best friend that have always been staying over at my house.. but, my parents send her away after 12 years of my life with her? and when she left, i totally feel so lost and don even know wat to do. i feel this is so crap? like wth my parents wan with me? they can even ask me to go overseas just because they have no time for me and that since i don like to stay at home and neither do they wan to see my face everyday. its like so wtf? oh and bev.. erm.. i can't stop ppl from liking me? and that if got someone like me than i tell u lor.. as a friend before, we share thoughs and feelings what.. din u tell them to me too? and besides, they r all factual what... and now who's the one hanging on the past? saying drop it drop it.. and claiming that i did not drop it whereas im not even saying a thing about it and you are still hanging there... and if u really wanna pick on me with this issuse, they asked for my opinion. if they think its not right, they could have made their own judement? and i said that it would look good on them mah.. its the truth what.
and so whats wrong with just giving a piece of my mind since they r asking for my real actual opinion and u keeps hanging there and only shooting me back with " since u r a prefect i should tell them the right thing and stuff like that. " but if i say this, you would think that im insulting you? and i don even wanna make u think that im insulting u cause i wan peace? but if u r pushing the blame on me for everything just because we enter to the hair shop? then person before we enter said that we r just to go in and they will give us advices on our hair and stuff like that.
and after when we entered the shop, you all are the one that ask me? and if u keeps hanging saying its my fault or wat like wats the point? i am just giving my opinion what. and even if they hear my opinion, they can still choose not to do this what? now the way that u r putting it is that actaully u r kinda insulting them that they have no brains to think for their own? i mean if a person don wanna do it, they just wont do it what.
and bev, once again, i seriously din tell hy anything. y u keep thinking that i would tell him something?! [ u will say like cause he is my daddy? or close to me? ] its like i already said that its cuz he like me not as a daddy anymore wat. and i don even know how the hell he knows? and i don even think he knows wat is actually going on lor.
The Ugly Duckling
Im MeeN
And im 16 this year
Want presents on 21st June
I'm a really straight forward person
And i'm Effin Kind alrite?!?! xD
Ok... that's if you're nice to me as well though.. ^^
IM SUPER FRIENDLY TOO!! ;DD
if sometimes i'm lazy to post about my daily life, i'll post stuff about myself like quizzes and tests that i've done so that more peeps will be able to know more about me!!
Super Temperamental and it's like very hard to understand and know what's going on in my mind..
Mood can change in a blink of an eye.. and it can really change to the extreme!
- Backstabbers
- Liars
- Hypocrite
- Garlic
- Acting cute
- Onion
- Stuff toys
- Mushroom
- MY FAMILY
- Guys that use waist bags
- Party SPOILERS
- Overly broken english
- Chinese
- Being caught in the middle
- Being sad
- Ppl that thinks i'm acting
- Sticking to the Rules!
Being HappyAlways is ME! XD
My Mini Chocolate Shop
All pricing of chocs are counted by PER piece.
choices of nuts are Almond or Hazel nut
semi-sweeten dark chocs [$0.50]
semi-sweeten dark chocs with nuts [$0.70]
white chocs [$0.70]
white chocs with nuts [$1]
half dark half white [$1]
half dark half white with nuts [$1.50]
if you want your choc to be customise, letters can be added on one letter per choc.
each letter will have an additional add of [$0.30]
for ordering, please state clearly what type of nuts you want and the rest of the information clearly.
Thanks You!! XD
MeeN
Wishy List! Grant them!! xD
New school bag New specs Apple earpiece Bouquet of flowers
Piano
Personalise mirror
Table full of b'day cakes
Hair food
New sling bag school shoes
More Beads
A globe
Outing shoes
New desk
New handphone
More clothes!!
Watch
Wii Pencil case Psp fatty
Psp slim
Wii
Laptop
